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The Importance of Overcoming Denial

Excerpt from The Importance of Overcoming Denial | Svali Speaks.

Finally, denial may come from society. The survivor has it ground in from infancy by the cult that “No one will ever believe you, they will think you are crazy if you ever talk, and lock you up.” Our society today often looks the other way, or looks askance at the survivor. Groups such as the FMS were created to blitz the media with unfounded statements about memory retrieval, and to invalidate survivors who have the courage to speak out and say, “This is real, and it happens.” How many news stories are out there that make ritual abuse look as if it is a “modern hysteria” or attempt to denigrate therapists willing to work with and help survivors? I know that when I was in San Diego, leadership council was well aware of the power of the media, and the council had a saying, “Don’t attack your enemy, discredit him (in the media).” They found it much more effective, and reporters such as M. Sauer do an excellent job for them. I hope that he, and others that I knew in the group, will learn that they can get out.

The survivor who is able to overcome the denial of family, internal denial, and programmed denial, will still be met by blank looks, or worse, those who turn their backs on them, and say, “I don’t want to hear about this, “ or “I can’t hear about this.” Pastors will say this, social workers, CPS workers, and those whose comfort zone is crossed with the thought that ritual abuse really occurs. Those who tell the survivor, “I believe you”, at times may seem far and few between, and I applaud their willingness to look at realities which often make us feel uncomfortable. No one WANTS to think that human beings can do this to one another, or that such horrific abuse is possible.

I am here to say loud and clear that ritual abuse occurs. It is real. It is not made up. The people who disclose their abuse are not crazy, they are not liars, they are not looking for attention or sympathy. They are some of the most courageous, intelligent, and psychologically honest people that I have ever known in my life, and many are facing some of the most tremendous emotional pain possible by the grace of God, and surviving it. My one hope is that someday, soon, our society will wake up and come out of its own denial, and be willing to help take action on behalf of those that have survived, and are working desperately to escape the reach of the cult and those associated with it. May God bless each person who takes the steps to leave and to walk in the truth and freedom, and to fight against a great evil in our land (and around the world).

Often times it is much easier for the average person to look away when the subject of ritual abuse comes up. To believe that it is extremely rare. Or even to wonder if it is real, in spite of the extensive documentation that has been done that proves its existence. For more information on this subject, please go to some of the links provided on this page.

Ritual abuse is not going to go away, in spite of the desire of many to minimize its impact both on the survivor community, and their supporters. The more people become aware of this problem, the more hope that this type of abuse can be stopped, and that no more children will be wounded in the war that is being waged for their hearts and souls.

There is currently legislation that has been passed in six states outlawing ritual abuse, with other states pending. Legislators are becoming educated in the reality of this type of abuse, and are beginning to take measures to ensure that it is stopped.

There have been extensively documented cases of ritual abuse which have gone to court and been proven. Anyone who denies the reality has not read the current literature available on the subject. (See links for further info)

Resources for Ritual Abuse and Mind Control Please note that all of the sources below can be found on line. I regret that MSN will not allow the URLs to copy here (the editing tool erases them automatically). You may look up the addresses by typing in the name in any web search engine.


The first time I heard of Illuminati and Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA) was at a group meeting of people who were dedicated to healing themselves and each other from the effects of their dysfunctional families. It seemed to be helpful to simply be able to tell our stories in a non-judgmental environment. And so we did.

One exquisitely beautiful woman in our group had a story that went far beyond the usual abuse and neglect. She said she had been raised in “The Cult”. I had no reference point to understand… She continued to say that as a child, she had been forced to kill her baby brother.

I no longer remember her name, so I will call her “Rose”.

Rose had fled to our Pacific Northwest town, all the way across the American continent, to escape the unwelcome attention of her father, who wanted her to return to the East Coast to be queen of “The Cult”. The members of “The Cult” had chosen her from birth to be their queen, and had also chosen her king. The king had also escaped to our town and he was a very protective single dad of a darling little girl. He too wanted nothing to do with “The Cult”. A young German woman visited Rose and our group. She too was a runaway – from the European branch of “The Cult”.

Rose’s father often came to town and took her away for days at a stretch. During his visits, she would “lose time”. In  the world of mind control, to “lose time” means to have a blank space in your memory. Rose would have no memory of where she had been or what she had done while her father was in town. The implication was that there was a sexual component of his interest in her. She dreaded his calls and his visits.

During their phone conversations, Rose’s father would use trigger words to flip a switch in her mind; in essence he would hypnotize her so that she would do whatever he wanted her to do.

To prevent herself from answering the phone and to protect herself from his unwanted visits, Rose developed a system that required a little help from her friends. Each day she asked someone to program a lock with a numeric code, which was to be kept secret from her until the next morning. At night she would disassemble the phone (this was 25 years ago, before cellphones) in some way and put some of the parts into the box and lock them away. All night, she could sleep undisturbed by incoming calls. In the morning she would reassemble the phone and the friend would call with the secret code Rose needed, to unlock the box. Each day it was a different friend and a different secret number.

At one point, Rose said, “My father is a very powerful man,” I returned, “Your father is a bully; he hurts children.”

“My father is on the cover of news magazines several times a year,” she said. It took me years to figure out who that might be. No US president is on the cover of news magazines several times a year after his time in the Oval Office. But there are those who oil the big wheels of giant industries and governments all over the world…

In my work and even in my private life, I have met many survivors of “The Cult” and its offshoots. I have heard many stories. If you know a child who has disappeared, someone who is fearful, aggressive, depressed… you may know someone who has been affected by this very sick system of things. Rose’s was just one story. There are more to come…

Kerth Barker – Memoirs of an SRA Survivor by Kerth Barker


Angelic Defenders & Demonic Abusers – Memoirs of a Satanic Ritual Abuse Survivor is a stunning new book by Kerth Barker. It is guaranteed to open your eyes, to change your life – and to change the planet. See more about it at

This is a review on…

Horrible and fascinating . . . very well written. I believe it to be fact; if fiction, it is certainly convincing. It does seem to explain a lot of things I have read about or heard about; nothing surprising about human nature and how some people crave power so much, and attain it, and then act out their fantasies on other people, subordinating and enslaving them just because they have the power to do so. That is the nature of evil; having no compassion or empathy for the suffering or feelings of others; extreme self-centeredness and narcissism. Seeing others only as means to their own ends; in those peoples’ minds, you are either simply in their way or giving them what they want – not much else. Ultimately this was a tale of great suffering that led to redemption and understanding and if all true, I bow to the author for overcoming the most horrendous abuse and saving himself – i.e., saving his own soul. I salute him.

For me, lightbulbs are going on and dots are connecting. When you’ve read the book, I hope you will come back here and share your own impressions, insights, revelations, stories.

This book is a game-changer, folks. Only a tiny percentage of the population engages in pedophilia, child trafficking,and the torture of innocents – both physically and mentally. The vast majority of people are good, honest, decent, and the good people of planet Earth will no longer tolerate the mischief of their well-coiffed government and corporate “rulers” once they discover the form of worship they engage in.

Their “god” demands the drinking of children’s blood, the rape and murder of children, every form of cheat and deceit, arcane rituals in secret places and crimes against humanity. The fact that Satanists are in control of high places explains why the world does not seem to make sense any longer. Satanists feel obliged to turn everything that is good and beautiful and true into its opposite. We’ve got to take the planet back, folks.

Continue reading Kerth Barker – Memoirs of an SRA Survivor by Kerth Barker

“John Todd” (Lance Collins)

Audio recordings on Youtube of John Todd (Lance Collins)…

Every man in the Council of Foreign Relations, and every man in the TriLateral Council believes that Lucifer is god supreme, has declared it, has taken a vow of secrecy, and has dedicated his life to seeing that ‘Adam’ chains the world.


Dungeon Vatican Rituals at Satan’s Altar – Joanna
By Greg Szymanski

Joanna spent time as child in the dungeons of the Vatican, attending rituals of torture at the altar of the devil.

Joanna of Florida comes forward, saying she was a “blood liner”, born into the French House of the Illuminati, her exact placement in the worldwide cult being in the spiritual sector.

“I was born into a multigenerational family that one side was Masonic and on the other Illuminati. My family were members of the DAR, referred to as bluebloods,” said Joanna in an extended conversation from her Florida home, having finally rid herself of the Illuminati influence.

“Most of my childhood was spent in training and grooming, and I attended rituals at the Vatican, in a sub basement, where I was used as an ‘oracle’. The militia I was involved with was connected to a Masonic group and my childhood was almost all training for the Illuminati and intense military type training for the militia. Extreme torture was used to form what is known as alters, with amnesia barriers that kept me from knowing that I was a slave for these cults…”

Read more at Woman Claims Time In Vatican Dungeon Satanic Rituals.

“Svali” – Illuminati trainer

Illuminati children are taught to kill by Svali
from Svali speaks – Part 16 – Lone Gunmen

People do not suddenly become killers.It is a learned process to overcome the natural horror of killing other human beings, a process begun in earliest childhood by the Illuminati. You have to force a child to kill.

Here is how it is done (how it was done to me): [1] When the child is 2 years old, place them in a metal cage with electrodes attached. Shock the child severely. [2] Take the child out, and place a kitten in its hands. Tell the child to wring the kitten’s neck. The child will cry and refuse. [3] Put the child into the cage, and shock them until they are dazed and cannot scream any more. [4] Take the child out, and tell them again to wring the kitten’s neck. This time the child will shake all over, cry, but do it, afraid of the torture. The child will then go into the corner and vomit afterwards, while the adult praises them for “doing such a good job.”

This is the first step. The animals get bigger over time, as the child gets older. They will be forced to kill an infant at some point, either a set up or VR, or in reality. They will be taught by age 9 to put together a gun, to aim, and fire on target and on command. They will then practice on realistic mannikins. They will then practice on animals. They will then practice on “expendables” or in VR. They will be highly praised if they do well, and tortured if they don’t comply.

The older the child or teen, the more advanced the training. By age 15, most children will also be forced to do hand to hand combat in front of spectators (high people who come to watch the “games” much as the ancient gladiators performed). These matches are rarely done to the death, usually until one child goes down. They use every type of weapon imaginable, and learn to fight for their lives. If a child loses a fight, they are heavily punished by their trainer, who loses “face”. If they win, they are again praised for being “strong’ and adept with weapons. By the time they are 21, they are well trained combat/killing machines with command codes to kill and they have been tested over and over to prove that they WILL obey on command. This is how children in the German Illuminatiare brought up, I went through it myself.

Q: Svali, you said earlier that a ‘halt’ program is one of the first programs installed in children. What exactly does it consist of? Is it just a code word, or a more complicated process?

A: Svali: Normally, the halt program is a code that freezes the child or adult in their tracks. It is a combination of numbers, such as “354″ (not a real one, just similar as an example), or a german word and number combination.

All children will try to hurt their trainers back, it ALWAYS happens, at a very young age. The part of them that tried to do the hurting (usually a protector) will be severely punished, with imprisonment and isolation, or being beaten, or shocked, or a combination to teach them not to do this.

The halt command will then be put in under hypnosis, while drugged, after extreme trauma. The alter with the command is told to come out INSTANTEOUSLY on hearing it, and to freeze the body with no movement; the person is told that if they fail to do this, many more torture sessions will follow as punishment. It is reinforced frequently over time.

Read more at the Svali Speaks website. Some comments:

I never could understand how the world we live in has become so cruel.. until this interview. I see how the evil grows and how it perpetuated itself into our lives< with all the higher-ups are being part of it, even though sometimes an unwilling part. The only question I have left is : how it came to be at all from the beginning? Is it part of human nature or has it been brought to our planet from somewhere else???
~ from

  • These people need to be stopped. This needs to stop.
  • They are not Satanic, they are Luciferian… there is a difference.
  • In Europe there are 12 “fathers” who represent the nations of Europe, which they call “houses”.
  • I had to swear my allegiance to “He who is to come.”

At one point, it was feared that Svali was no longer alive, but in the video, SVALI 2013 – latest evidence – Illuminati can’t find her!!! at

A surprise discovery in web analytics strongly suggests that the Illuminati can’t find Svali and that they are trying to harass her from a distance – via the web. So she and her family must be safe and well. Wonderful news for good people of all faiths – we’ll show your the evidence – pass it on!

Message from Svali to all trapped members of the Illuminati who can no longer bear it and want to get out:


Carolyn Hamlett

Interview with Carolyn Hamlett, a former “Illumined One”

Carolyn comes from a bloodline of generational illuminists. As a result, she was born right into the Luciferian agenda for the last days. Only by the grace and repeated direct intervention of Jesus Christ has she been able to arrive at this point in her life. She speaks not because she wants attention, but because she feels a responsibility and call to do so. She is joining us to begin a series of programs during which we are going to be discussing her testimony. She will undoubtedly share many things that will shock you, stretch you, and frankly blow your mind. However, in the end, it is our goal that the true accounts that she will relay will empower you with both knowledge and faith.

Illuminati Pedophilia – A Victim’s Memoir

What I remember most about this possible underground facility is seeing children in cages…kept like animals. Most of them were about my age…

One more child was brought in to show me “how normal” it was for children to do sexual things with grown men.


Carolyn’s Blog:

“Brice Taylor” (Sue Ford)

Brice Taylor, former CIA mind control victim, names the high profile perp abusers from her past. Her book is Thanks for the Memories in honor of her handler, Bob Hope. Here is the book’s table of contents:

Foreword by Walter Bowart: Thanks for the Memmemmormee!? …… 7
Historical Overview: Mind Control in the Modern Context…….12
Project Monarch: Nazi Mind Control by Ron Patton ……..14
Manufacturing the Mind Controlled Slave………25
Awakening to the Realities of Mind Control……..31
Authors’s Introduction…………..35

Chapter One: The Creation of Human Robot……….40
Chapter Two: Early Childhood Preparation ……..43
Chapter Three: We’re Off to See the Wizard……..57
Chapter Four: Uncle Charlie, Kissinger, Hope and their Little Puppet…..65
Chapter Five: Initiation into the Political Arena as a Sex Slave……..74
Chapter Six: JFK and the Sex Shuttle………83
Chapter Seven: All the way with LBJ……….92
Chapter Eight: Brain Surgery at UCLA took away my Father’s Free Will…96
Chapter Nine: They didn’t see me as Human………..99
Chapter Ten: Introduced to Governor Ronald Reagan …… 107
Chapter Eleven: Mind Control in the Prisons……….110
Chapter Twelve: Nixon, Kissinger, and International Business ……116
Chapter Thirteen: Bob Hope “Let me entertain you.”…….135
Chapter Fourteen: Parties at the Rockefellers………147
Chapter Fifteen: Hope and Kissinger Utilize the Kennedy Family….159
Chapter Sixteen: Viva Las Vegas …………163
Chapter Seventeen: The Rat Pack ………..171
Chapter Eighteen: Gerald Ford……….183
Chapter Nineteen: My Programmed Marriage – We’ve Only Just Begun ……186
Chapter Twenty: Jimmy Carter ………….189
Chapter Twenty-one: The Hollywood Connection……….190
Chapter Twenty-two: Prince Phillip, Prince Charles, and Princess Di …..203
Chapter Twenty-three: They Stole My Baby………..206
Chapter Twenty-four: USC: Higher Education or Mind Control……208
Chapter Twenty-five: Baby Monarchs are Born……..215
Chapter Twenty-six: Dodger Diamonds……….239
Chapter Twenty-seven: Education 2000……….243
Chapter Twenty-eight: Reagan, Kissinger, Bush and More Horrors ……247
Chapter Twenty-nine: Back to the Future………255
Chapter Thirty: UCLA Neuropsychiatric Institute……….264
Chapter Thirty-one: Weaponry Technology of the Future …….268
Chapter Thirty-two: Robot Breakdown………..274
Chapter Thirty-three: Bill Clinton and Hillary………277
Chapter Thirty-four: Excuse Me, I Would Like My Life Back……..280
Chapter Thirty-five: Secret Societies ………296
Chapter Thirty-six: The Council’s Plan………..299
Chapter Thirty-seven: What the World Needs Now……..308
Chapter Thirty-eight: A Mother and Grandmother’s Sorrow ……..316
Epilogue ……………..321

Survivor Resources…………325
Suggested Reading…………325

Cathy O’Brien

Cathy O’Brien

Child victim of the illuminati mind-control sex slave program, Cathy was used for decades as a “presidential model”, drug courier and international message bearer. She was required to service U.S. presidents, vice-presidents, senators, top military officials, and notables in the entertainment industry.

Survivor turned whistleblower, Cathy’s books are: TranceFormation of America and Access Denied. She has astonishing tales to tell of those who are still in public office in Washington, D.C., those who have recently left, and those who aspire to public office in the near future and some who have died. Cathy has recovered and offers tools for healing in her book, Access Denied.